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I think I find it funny that the last time I wrote was about giving them a piece of your mind. Letting it out and show that you were not blind.But then you never know in tomorrow what will you find. In a month you can turn blind. By that I don’t mean literally but by this world that you have been racing behind. This heart of yours constantly reminds. But from one thing to another through out the day… you don’t have time?
So you struggle day by day… just few minutes to yourself … just some thoughts… just to make sense of what is really on your mind. Running from one thing to another, keeping yourself together that nine to five grind. You complain to yourself, others around you and they try to be kind. But where is that peace of mind?!
You leave one thing for another, try to fit it all and a thought from the past runs through your mind. Where once you wanted to be busy, you wanted a routine, you got what you wanted? Oh wow? Your God is Most Kind (Surah Al-Hajj). You still have the nerves to sit here and complain that you don’t have time? When you once wanted it all, why are you so blind?
Being grateful for it all is where you will find that peace of mind. What you have been searching for, what your heart to you is trying to remind. Sometimes to get peace of mind you need to give yourself a piece of your own mind. Because truly your God is Most Kind. He is Most Kind.
For the past month I watched my surroundings closely. Saw the flowers blooming and the how the leaves took their time coming out slowly. Planted flowers all around and some seeds. Then saw my front and backyard filling up with weeds. While doing all of that for the past month the only thought it brought to my mind was reflect on my deeds. When we moved in this house we were so excited about half of our backyard being a swimming pool. Now when we lifted the cover of the pool, one night it rained and I reflected that it is rather scary instead of being cool.
Let me relate it all so it makes sense. The craze of gardening got to me. Although I was getting allergies I was doing it all at my own expense. I would dig up the ground for the plants. Just by digging a little came out worms and ants. Then at night it rained and I couldn’t sleep. I looked out the window in the dark and stared at how the pool was so deep. Then I remembered papa telling me how it was about 5 to 6 feet. Isn’t that how deep our graves will be? I came back to bed getting the shivers and trying hard to sleep. But all I thought about was how it all related and the sign it was giving me.
Just by digging once came out the worms. Imagine what will be 6 feet under the ground. An eye opener was that indeed. I just imagined myself 6 feet under the ground. And here those tiny little worms were giving me the creep. And I forgot the reality that after I die what will be waiting for me? 6 feet deep yes 6 feet deep. Now let’s talk about the beauty surrounding me. What I talked about just now is also a beauty because it made me realize where I am going and what my future one day will be that everyone is guaranteed (death).
A few days later the flowers bloomed. Glory be to the One that filled the flowers up with perfume. I stared at the flowers around me and realized our personalities are the same. There are certain people around us who are beautiful from the outside but not from their heart. Take them as those that look like flowers from the outside but when you dig under the ground worms come out. But then there are also those people who are beautiful from inside out. Those are flowers from the outside and when you dig up the ground under them the soil even smells good no doubt. Now the question is how do we pick out the ones that are beautiful from inside and out? Sigh that if I knew I would definitely write about.
But advice to myself and you. Be that beautiful flower inside and out that is full of perfume. Leave your fragrance everywhere you go. Doesn’t matter how other treat you and what they decide to show. Just keep walking on your road and watch yourself glow.
He found you in want, and made you free of want (Surah ad-duha). yet its a shame we still want this world to make us feel confident. let me explain what I mean in a example that is decent. A man buys a nice lookin car and feels all high. Sees others lower than him and thinks he is touching the sky. But did you take a minute to ever realize? That nice lookin car is only few inches above the ground and cannot fly…you will drive on the same road that pedestrians use to walk by. so why does achieving this world make us feel above high? Why do we want to make ourselves feel better by buying this world and letting it deceive our eyes? When you take a step towards Him you start to feel self-sufficient. not desiring this world and you are no longer on a worldly hunt. Your life turns to take a turn because you realize He is your Owner and you are just really a slave and a servant!