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What is this world but a beautiful distraction? Something towards which we feel attraction. To our eyes it brings satisfaction. Our words may say something else but we give a total different message through our actions.
In this world it is so easy to get lost. Even if we can see a clear view, it is a matter of seconds for our focus to get lost. Getting into accidents because our road something crossed. Getting distracted then wondering why in the race we came last. Trying to achieve the best of this world at any cost.
This world failing us over and over again. We turn wise for a while then run after it without any shame. We want to fall down and keep looking for someone to finally understand our pain. So we look for that in other people and sit there to complain and complain. It’s a constant cycle as if we have built a chain. We complain and they complain as if we are saving each other from going down the drain. But why are we so deaf dumb and blind that we don’t use our brain?
We ourselves are responsible for creating the biggest barrier between our happiness. How insane! We know we will all go in the grave one day but we fill it up with mud as if that’s not a real thing. That is when we lose our focus, what a shame! So that is when the race begins, our hearts full of stains. Trying to justify our actions by saying but please let me explain.
Our heads confused and our hearts full of pain. Not being thankful for each and every grain. Forgetting the blessing of seeing through our eyes and getting annoyed with when it rains. So busy capturing moments on a camera that we forget what was the real thing. Sitting together with real people yet busy on our phones playing games. Then when they die we remember them as our main.
So why do we complain for all that pain? When we caused it all by ourselves because we went off the lane. When we are the ones who couldn’t stop ourselves and restrain. When we are the ones who wanted the best of this world and keep running after this train. When we are clearly given the real focus of this life and what we are really here to attain. Why do we still complain? Losing our happiness and focus and causing ourselves to drain. Oh what a shame! What a shame!
Lunch at work and some “me” time at all time favorite spot.
Once again let’s talk about letting it go. If it comes back it is yours, of that how are you sure? Perhaps it came back for you as a test if you can once again let it go? Why are you looking back at those closed doors?
Within those closed doors was once where you felt secure. Till one day when it pushed up back and on your face it closed. And up till this day you think for your heart ache that is where you will find the cure.
You try to be patient till God finally will open the next door. At times you get impatient and about what’s ahead you seem unsure. Ignoring that God is with the patient ones (Surah Al-Baqarah) and to you again and again He assures.
So why can’t you let it go what you once called yours? Why can’t you trust that something better is planned for you at the next door?
Something better for all that you endured. Something better where your heart will feel secure. Something better that you can finally call yours.
The pain you feel in your heart from not getting what you wanted to happen someday it will outgrow. It will take a month or two or even years give it time it will be slow. There will be times where you will have no strength to face this world and you will feel low. There will be times you will be lost in your thoughts trying to figure out where you went wrong though. There will also be times you will be annoyed and you will ignore all the other blessings on you that has been bestowed. But it’s okay let it all out so you can let it go. Because to see the beauty of your current situations the past thoughts and plans you need to get rid of and throw. Eventually you will get used to it all and start liking your routine but sometimes you will think of everything that you wanted to happen though. Those thoughts come back to you not to annoy but to make you realize and show. That you can also be happy in a place that you never wanted to go. Always remember He knows what you do not know (Surah al-baqarah). And a day will come sooner or later when God will reveal it to you and show.
Toronto | This beautiful view from a friend’s room.
Sometimes we take the right decisions but the past we never forget. Sometimes you move on with your life with the right things but your decisions at times you still regret. Sometimes we miss the past and sit quietly and one or two tears we shed. And sometimes all around us people go on with their lives ignoring how we feel and seeing our lives as all set.
But you didn’t forget, you didn’t forget. The times you were helpless and the times they all left. The times they made you feel so weak as if they have done so much and on your shoulders there is so much debt. The time they mocked you and threw you down as a burnt cigarette. And then they ignore what happened in the past as if it is easy to forget.
Only God was there to show you a way when you needed to be led. Only He was there who saw and you He didn’t forget. And now when your life is all set… they come back offering you the same that you once wanted ignoring that you were once upset. He sees what you want and makes you free of the want and now you don’t want to get (Surah ad-Duha). It’s all in your head what they once said. It’s all in your heart what you once felt. They remember it all but pretend to forget. But you need to let them know that you didn’t forget!
Because you didn’t forget, you didn’t forget. All those tears that you once shed. You didn’t forget how you once felt. When they all walked away and all by yourself you were left. You didn’t forget who then came as always to help. You didn’t forget and He didn’t forget.
Turn your face to the sun and shadows fall behind you. Downtown Toronto
It’s been a while since I wrote. I guess you can say I was in the middle of the sea and got lost with my boat. There are times in our lives where we ask ourselves towards which way do we float? There is Someone there Who is pulling us towards this one way as if by a remote. Truth be told it is a long way. We walk and run, at times we think of it all as amusement and play (Surah Al-Hadid). Then we fall down while playing shedding those tears and remember to once again pray. Who is guiding our way? Who is not letting us get lost and protecting us from being of those who from their path go astray?
One night in November you walk home alone. It is dark, it is quite and only through street lights the path is shown. The struggle you feel this night you never felt before. You cry and say out loud Oh God please let me sit right here on this road. Is it possible to not have the strength to walk not even to your house door? With a broken heart and no strength You keep going on and the pain you ignore.
You want to fall down or sit but something keeps pushing you from the back. Something keeps telling you that if you fall down on the road, you will loose this so you cannot slack. From all around you feel as if you are being attacked. Then all of a sudden as if you see light passing through a crack. It is a light from your home so you run towards it as fast as you can. And finally you reach home and you let it all out. You run to your room and let those tears finally fall down to the ground. There is no more pain or struggle, but rather tears of happiness and in your thoughts you drown…
There is finally an understanding of the concept that this is truly how your life goes. No matter what street you walk through at the end you must come home. Since you know where your house is and to you the path is shown. Now you do a bit of exploring, get lost in few streets but as long as you get back to the street that is your own. We get lost many times in our lives but what matters is how many times we bring ourselves back towards the path that is known. No matter what we do in our lives we must return back to the One who owns the Throne ( Surah Al-Baqarah). Now it is up to us if we want to wander the streets being lost or do we want to return back home?
As long as we want to return to our home God won’t let us fall. At times we will walk and run and in hard times He will even help us crawl. As long as we keep the intention of returning back home He will even help us break walls. As long as we keep doing good on our way He won’t give up and will continue to call. This is your walk alone so at all times you must stand tall. People will walk with you for a while but then turn into the streets where their houses are. But at the end we all must get to our homes it is where we belong. It is all a matter of telling ourselves that you can do it because you are strong.
Getting inspired by these yummy ice cream truffles on a rainy day.
It is hard for us to face rejection. Because around us we want no negativity and from others always want to see affection. There are many times we don’t even want something but when we get rejected by it we want to compete. Why didn’t I get selected, Why didn’t they pick me… that wanting of always being on top and others we want to beat. Not realizing that we got rejected by this because there is something better waiting for us down the street.
You can keep tasting chocolates till you eat the one that tastes best out of all. You will keep getting rejected until you have enough experience to still stand tall. You will keep getting rejected at interviews till you reach the one job that is meant to be yours. You will keep facing rejection till you reach that person you are actually made for. You will keep asking for help in something and getting rejected till you knock on that one door. And you will keep failing that test over and over again till you get enough practice to get the highest score.
It is hard for us to face rejection because we always want to win. It doesn’t matter if we don’t even want that thing. We still busy ourselves with competing, loosing our sleep over it and making our heads spin. We get rejected only because there is something better for us at end. Think back to your life today and all those rejections through which you have been. Would you have all that you have today, or all that you did achieve if you stopped at that thing? We always think we know what is best for us but it is actually God who knows it all (Surah al-baqarah) and that is how it has always been. But sadly we forget it every time by competing, because this world we are trying to win.
Its past midnight and I sit here and think. How heartless can we really be, I let this feeling inside me sink. You feel the pain of other when they are being unjustly treated because you find a link. But you do wrong to others so many times without even having a second thought or even letting your eyes blink. It is okay if you do it but wrong when others do the same. Only you have feelings while others don’t, such a shame. I can do whatever I want but when others do me wrong I can point fingers and blame. And we find happiness in watching people being treated badly because ‘oh they once did us wrong’… truly that is the world’s game.
But what is the matter with you why do you not help each other (Surah As-Saffat)? Why do you get happy when your mom is happy with you but gets mad at your brother? Why do you not have the patience to slow your pace when walking behind someone who can’t walk fast? How do you have the heart to stand there and watch a lion dragging a man away but rather making a video so it can last? When someone asks for your help why all of a sudden you are full of pride because they don’t know but you know it all? Why can’t you help one another it is not like by doing that you get small?
You hold a real live heart beating inside you. Is it as beautiful as you look from outside if someone was to look through? You can spend the whole day wasting time and money but you always give second thoughts if someone asks you for help or a dollar and two. You don’t know how to react or say two words of encouragement to someone who pours their heart to you. And then you sit here with a hard heart having no feelings towards anyone but you. It is not making you stronger but rather weak, it is sad how this world makes us believe the opposite, sad but true.
A heart dies when a human dies that is the truth. But your heart dies before you die if your world only revolves around you. My phone, my car, my clothes and my shoes. Of those suffering and dying please don’t describe to me that view. Because we are so busy living this fake life that we ourselves drew. The reality only hits us when the same experience we ourselves go through. How did we become so heartless? I am talking about me and you. Why do we not help one another through? It doesn’t matter if it is lending a pencil or giving in charity or even standing up for something that is true? It is all help at the end of the day and someone will appreciate it through. Wake you heart up and burst the bubble of this materialistic world that you created around you.
Step out to help the ones in need because Remember when you called on your God for help and He answered you (Surah Al-Anfal)?
It is one of those days when you question why me? When people pick on you for no reason, you get those weird comments and it goes on till the end of the day and you think ‘are you kidding me’? You are put into awkward situations that make you feel uneasy. And you start to get annoyed when people bump in to you for no reason when they can actually clearly see. One after the another the whole day goes by and you wish for it to end already. Then you lay in bed at night so tired and count everything that happened today thinking wow one, two, three.
Everything that happens to us is a trial either made of evil or good (Surah Al-Anbya). Just to see how well you can handle all these situations if you could. Everything in life is here to teach us patience, as if that was easy we definitely would? It is so easy to get annoyed with everything that is happening wrong, forgetting the days everything was happening as what we wanted and life was good? By doing that I think it is the whole life purpose that we misunderstood. Because that one awkward moment or day can teach you a huge lesson that those good days never would. Life would be too boring if we never had any of these awkward moments to teach us to appreciate the good days and the value of them we finally know and understood!
love working with glitter; always searching for the gold.
Those lessons that you sometimes think back to. When you had a talk with someone and out of the whole thing that is the only thing towards which your attention drew. They said everything they wanted to and that one line you remembered till now that you sometimes think back to? That is the lesson you need to give value. Often times God sends you clues. They don’t fall down the sky but from different sources they come through. The reason you remember them up till now is because that is something you need to put your attention to. And work on improving yourself by putting your focus on that view.
It doesn’t matter if those people are still in your life or not. Because everyone stays in your life for a limited time if you give it a thought. Some walk away before others and to you some good lessons they taught. While others stick strong with you till the end of time as if you have been tied in a knot. The ones that walk away sooner give you a lesson that you need to learn right now. But sometimes we put our focus on why they walked away from us, looking for answers to what and how? Rather than being thankful for the lesson we learned and how it made us wise … yes wow?
Today I reflect on how I learned. Sometimes you are taught the same lesson again and again till to it your attention you turn. Yes you get hurt sometimes but the wise ones are those who actually went through the pain to earn. Because if it wasn’t for the pain there is nothing that you will learn. Because new skin comes only after you get burned.
God does not test you beyond what you are capable of (Surah Al-Baqarah). So those lessons and that one sentence you remember up till now take it as a gift sent from above. Today look back at what you remember and what you were taught. Through those people that are still in your life and those who decided to walk their own path. You will always remember something from the experiences you go through. Today sit back by yourself and think of each of them from a different point of view. Because in all that glitter of your life experiences those lessons are the only gold you will find hidden through.
There was a time in our lives when we wanted to jump on the clouds. You know when they turn so fluffy and get together and make a crowd. Then we would go hiking sometime and from the top of the mountain see them fly away. Whenever we finally come close to them how come they don’t stay? How come when we finally catch up with them they run away. We would come back not knowing the answers for each other and not having much to say.
Of these big fluffy clouds I have always been a fan. Who puts them together, their shapes who plans? So many questions we hold in our hands. Who sends forth the winds so they raise a cloud? God spreads it forth in the sky as He pleases (Surah Ar-Rum) and puts them into crowds. Such a confusion sometimes even when the answer is available yet we wonder out loud. Imagine if we could touch them if only we were allowed? That is where we get fooled by this world because with having everything in our hands we feel too proud.
This world seems to work just like that. After all these clouds are part of this world that everyday we look at. You try to get to close to the world and it will turn flat. But if you were to look from standing far away it looks beautiful to look at. That is the trick we need to understand and work at. Run after this world and there is nothing that we will gain. Stand far away the clouds will look beautiful and after that you even get to enjoy the rain. But if you keep running after the clouds they will keep running away. Causing so much confusion in your life and all that pain. When you don’t understand why it is happening, what a shame. It will keep doing it to you again and again. Until one day you decide to walk your own away and just enjoy their beauty along as in their place they remain. This world will only look beautiful when from running after it you refrain.