Who is more loyal, we can’t seem to decide. Who prayed for you? Those tears who cried? Why are you always judged by others on how much you tried. Why all of a sudden all the truth disappears and you remember that one time they lied? Why do you remember only the things they denied? And why don’t you remember when with you they were side by side?
We are constantly worried over if we are loyal to others that we forget ourselves. To others we do so much to prove ourselves that we keep filling that never ending shelf. Somewhere along that time is when we forget ourselves. The words we say, the standards we create, the respect we deserve; for all these things to remind ourselves we often end up needing others help.
Are we even loyal to ourselves? Do we even stick with the words we say? I understand the heart is constantly changing but how easily can we ourselves change? How easy it is to fool someone for own means and with their hearts we play? And here we sit trying to convince ourselves that we are loyal! we are loyal! just because we pray?
It is difficult enough to figure out our own intentions at times so how can we know with certainty the intentions of others and decide against the words they say? Who can we trust? not even ourselves we don’t know who is there to stay?
I am confused with loyalty and these standards everyone creates. No matter what you do they still find something to pin point and hate. I am done with being loyal to others and rather be loyal to myself and live day by day. I think I am just going to walk my own way.