Did you ever sit quietly in a place when outside it rains? You tell yourself you are going to get up but your body stays still and in the same place it remains. There are so many thoughts that keep building a chain. There are too many stories full of pain. You keep thinking and there are some stories that get you mad and you feel the blood running down your veins. Yet you sit still and in silence you remain.
We always learned that it is good to stand up for yourself. It is good to say what you feel, state your opinion and show that you don’t need their help. But there have been times when you did not say anything back. When you had the right thing to say but you held it in and did not attack. Now you sit and wonder why did I do that? It was a battle against yourself when of your thoughts you didn’t know how to keep track. But now you are glad that you didn’t say anything back.Because that is the trick how others sometimes want you to unpack.
They want to see how affected you have been by it all. They want you to say words back just so they can see you as small. They want to mock you and break your defence wall. And then you decide to stay quiet and the power of your silence beats it all. They are trying and trying to get you to say. They are trying so hard to have you not silently walk away. They are trying to have you break down in front of them and stay. But yet you silently walk away…
Oh what happened to their plans they came prepared to have you break down. They also came prepared to see on your face that frown. But it didn’t affect you a bit and you silently turned around. But now you sit here quietly and in your thoughts you drown. Why did they do this to you when for them you have always been around? You finally break and you put your head on the ground. You are complaining without any words to God and in silence there is so much that you say. You lift your head and your heart is filled with strength once again.
The truth is everyone is going to hurt you sometime in life. Some do it once upfront while others do it many times behind your back with a knife. They are your family, your friends, your relatives and whoever else and sometimes you don’t have a choice. So you keep silent not because you don’t have a voice. But because you respect yourself and know you have better things to take care of in your life. Let them try their best to break you, mock you, force you and emotionally blackmail you to break down and say. But always hold the power in your hands to silently walk away.